I haven’t written a blog in a good few days now, I feel like I’ve been missing something! Why haven’t I written in the past few days? Well I’ll been filling out job application forms, and to be honest with you, it’s been stressful, but surprisingly enjoyable at the same time.
I’ve been filling in forms for a couple of jobs that I really, truly desire. I’ve talked about the organisation I’m applying to in a previous blog, so I won’t mention any name now. I want to keep this blog fairly anonymous.
It’s funny how filling out application forms can suck you right out of reality. While filling in these forms I’ve been zoned out of reality for days, focusing on nothing but the computer screen. I suppose it is different when your professional life does depend on the jobs. When I was still working and filling out forms, I had a lacklustre approach to the whole thing. Now that I’m unemployed, every little thing seems like a huge thing now, and I’m taking everything very, very seriously.
One thing I am grateful for is the Job Club. Through the Job Centre, I have decided to attend a Job Club every Monday and Tuesday morning. It gives me a reason to get up in the morning, it gets me interacting with people, and it helps to keep me motivated. Fair enough I may not need the classes as much as other people would, but going to them helps to reassure me that I’m doing things right. I have Job Club in about 45 minutes, and I can honestly say I’m looking forward to it. Today’s session is on interview technique, which I need to brush up on.
Filling in these application forms also has given me time to reflect on all of the things I have done over the past few years. For a woman of my age, I’d say I have some pretty good experience. My age does play on my mind sometimes, and I think things like “They might think I’m too young for the job,” or “What would she know, she’s only 24,” but then I talk to people, like the people in the Job Club, and they help me to banish these thoughts and turn them into positive ones like “Of course I can do this,” and “Age is but a number, it’s the passion that counts!”
All in all, even though I have been sitting in front of the computer for days on end, I have had a very eventful week or so. Exploring the things that I have accomplished has given me more confidence in myself, and the dark, lingering cloud of being let go from a job, is starting to lift. Some days, I don’t even see that cloud at all! This has to be a step in the right direction, don’t you think?