Patience is a Virtue

Patience is a virtue. That’s what they say. Over the 24 years of my life, so far I’ve been a very patient person. I may have not had patience when it came to things like waiting to get presents on Christmas morning, or on your Birthday, but other than that, I’ve been a pretty patient person.

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I have now found my patience limit, or well, my patience meter is being tested. I have applied for two jobs recently, and I’m just a bit on edge now waiting to hear if I’ve gotten an interview or not. I know this is a normal feeling, but now that I’m unemployed, the feeling of being on edge seems to be ten times worse. When waiting for news on previous job application forms, I did feel on edge to some degree, but I was still in a job at this point. Nothing was really hanging in the balance, as it were. Now it feels like everything is depending on these jobs. Also, I am very passionate about said jobs, and have so many ideas forming in my head about them that I just can’t help but feel…impatient.

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I know it’s all a waiting game. I have no idea (well some idea) as to who else has applied for these jobs, and I often wonder to myself, are they feeling the same way that I am? I’m just guessing, but half of them probably are, and then half of them are probably already in a job and not feeling the same pressure. I know these people, whoever they are, are my competition, but I sometimes wish that we could all meet up and discuss what is happening with us. What is the most important thing to me, at the end of the day, is that the right person gets the job. Ideally that person would be me, but if it is not me, I want the job to go to someone who truly deserves it.

Anyway, I’ve found that quotes often help me out when I’m feeling stressed, anxious, and at this point, impatient. Here are a few that I really like:


“Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.”–Winston Churchill

“Believe in yourself! Have faith in your abilities! Without a humble but reasonable confidence in your own powers you cannot be successful or happy.”–Norman Vincent Peale

“Patience is not simply the ability to wait – it’s how we behave while we’re waiting.” – Joyce Meyer

“What good has impatience ever brought? It has only served as the mother of mistakes and the father of irritation.” ― Steve Maraboli

“Patience is the art of concealing your impatience.” – Guy Kawasaki

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The Process of Form Filling

I haven’t written a blog in a good few days now, I feel like I’ve been missing something! Why haven’t I written in the past few days? Well I’ll been filling out job application forms, and to be honest with you, it’s been stressful, but surprisingly enjoyable at the same time.

I’ve been filling in forms for a couple of jobs that I really, truly desire. I’ve talked about the organisation I’m applying to in a previous blog, so I won’t mention any name now. I want to keep this blog fairly anonymous.

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It’s funny how filling out application forms can suck you right out of reality. While filling in these forms I’ve been zoned out of reality for days, focusing on nothing but the computer screen. I suppose it is different when your professional life does depend on the jobs. When I was still working and filling out forms, I had a lacklustre approach to the whole thing. Now that I’m unemployed, every little thing seems like a huge thing now, and I’m taking everything very, very seriously.

One thing I am grateful for is the Job Club. Through the Job Centre, I have decided to attend a Job Club every Monday and Tuesday morning. It gives me a reason to get up in the morning, it gets me interacting with people, and it helps to keep me motivated. Fair enough I may not need the classes as much as other people would, but going to them helps to reassure me that I’m doing things right. I have Job Club in about 45 minutes, and I can honestly say I’m looking forward to it. Today’s session is on interview technique, which I need to brush up on.

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Filling in these application forms also has given me time to reflect on all of the things I have done over the past few years. For a woman of my age, I’d say I have some pretty good experience. My age does play on my mind sometimes, and I think things like “They might think I’m too young for the job,” or “What would she know, she’s only 24,” but then I talk to people, like the people in the Job Club, and they help me to banish these thoughts and turn them into positive ones like “Of course I can do this,” and “Age is but a number, it’s the passion that counts!”

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All in all, even though I have been sitting in front of the computer for days on end, I have had a very eventful week or so. Exploring the things that I have accomplished has given me more confidence in myself, and the dark, lingering cloud of being let go from a job, is starting to lift. Some days, I don’t even see that cloud at all! This has to be a step in the right direction, don’t you think?

Job Opportunity Rain Dance

You just never know what is going to come up do you? Job opportunities can sometimes be fleeting, or come in waves at random times. Often they are like a great drought, leaving people thirsty for anything that comes their way.

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At the moment I feel like I’m in a drought, but my rains dances seem to be having some effect! In the past couple of days I’ve heard whispers, rumours, of jobs that could potentially be coming up in the local area. Sometimes I think I just dreamt this, but I’ve heard that the new Siege Museum that the Apprentice Boys are developing will be announcing jobs in the coming weeks. Honestly, what could suit me better?

siege_mainUpon reading this news, ideas immediately sprung into my head about what I could potentially do for the Siege Museum, if I were to get a job. There are so many possibilities, and the history of the Siege of Derry in 1689 is just fascinating. It’s also a really gory piece of history, and if told right, will have the kids rapt with attention and giddy wonder. In my experience I’ve found that talking to kids about the gorier things in history, really gets their young blood pumping for more information. I remember when I was working in the Workhouse Museum (may its dormant halls be filled with ghosts) I loved talking to the school kids about the different living conditions within the Workhouse. Telling them that there was only one bucket between 100 people to use as a toilet in one dormitory always made them express their feelings of grossness!

One girl even asked me how they would clean the buckets every morning when they were taken out to the cesspit, and I thoroughly enjoyed telling the kids just how they would have cleaned the bucket! When the kids left, they all thanked me for the fun time they had. Talk about feeling big headed after that.

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Another opportunity has just presented itself to me; actually it presented itself to my dad in a fleeting piece on the radio. As soon as dad heard about the opportunity he came straight home and told me all about it. Downtown Radio are apparently looking for people for their Foyle Studio, so I rang Downtown, got the email address I needed to contact and well…I have to go and meet them on November 26th! I’m not too sure if it’s an interview of sorts, but as long as I get to go down and tell people how passionate I am about the city in which I live, I’m happy. I’ve spoken on the radio before, as mentioned in a previous blog post of mine, so I’m nervous about meeting them, but not as nervous as normal. If it’s a position where I have to speak on the radio, great! If it’s a position where I would be behind the scenes, researching and what not, that’s great too.

My Advice

When in a job opportunity drought, do a rain dance, and hopefully something will come your way.

It’s the little things…

Being out of work always gives you a lot of time to think about things. For example, in the past few days I’ve been thinking about setting up my own business, and thinking about signing up to a creative writing course in the North West Regional College. I’ve also been thinking a lot about my CV and how the hell I’m going to get it up to date, without exceeding the 2/3 page limit, and I’ve been thinking about my previous jobs, and how much I miss them.

All in all, my brain is like a buzzing hive of bees at the moment.

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Just when you think that you couldn’t possibly think about anything else, something comes up that makes you pause, and appreciate the little things in life.

I am currently sitting at the kitchen table in my Nana and Granda’s house. I am using my Granda’s laptop to write this very article. Yes, you heard me, my Granda’s laptop! The man is 80, and he is pretty dang good at using a laptop. Don’ ask him to browse the web for sites like Amazon, eBay or Youtube, but ask him to find you BT Sport and Sky Go and just watch him work. It’s inspiring.

Mature Caucasian man typing on laptop in home.

Anyway, back to my point. While I was working it seemed like I had very little time to ever go and see my grandparents. Now that I am out of a job, I am down with my Grandparents nearly every day. It’s wonderful to spend the time with them, and help them out around the house. They both have bad knees at the moment, so they are slowing down a bit. I’m trying to help them as much as I can, like cleaning the house, making the lunch and so on. It’s these little things, and spending the time with my Grandparents that I am really appreciating at the moment.

Sure I miss not having a job, but being with Nana and Granda makes me miss it all a little less. Being down here with them keeps me from thinking, and stressing about all those things that I mentioned earlier. I have them to think about now.

Then however, you get an email from someone asking you to do something for them, and you start to think about all of those stressful things again. I offered to help out once, and offered my services if they were ever stuck again; I can’t sit and do research for them at the drop of a hat, they do not employ me, and those were not the type of services I was offering.

Back to the little things, I do agree that when you have more time on your hands, you do tend to appreciate the little things in life more, whether it is a simple, relaxing walk during the day, or sitting having a cup of tea with your grandparents.

The Goodness of Strangers

It is a wonderful feeling when someone you don’t know has belief in you.

I was at the Job Centre today again, and rather than being frightened, I felt strangely calm today. Yes the place still smelled like weak disinfectant and old carpet, and there was a heavy sense of gloom in the air, but everyone seemed to have a smile on their face today, which put me at total ease.

The process today was a lot simpler than the previous time. All I had to do was go in and meet with two people and go through a simple interview.

The first section of the interview was easy, and I only had to fill in one additional form. The woman who was speaking with me was very pleasant and we chatted merrily about the upcoming Halloween Festival here in the city. My nerves were easing by the second.

The second section of the interview was even easier, as I just had to sit down and talk about myself to the interviewer. The lady I met with this time was equally as nice as the first one, and when I started talking about everything that I been doing in the past two years, she was all ears and seemed very impressed by it all! As I chatted, naturally she wrote down certain things and asked me questions, but when we had stopped talking, she asked me: “Have you ever thought about setting up your own business?”

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This question threw me for a moment. I had been talking about developing educational comics for museums and other educational organisations, and she thought there was a real market for that sort of thing, and that I had the passion for it. She honestly believed that it was a good idea, even though I was saying things like “I wouldn’t know where to start,” and “I don’t know how to handle finance too well.”

We moved on from the subject of starting my own business and completed the interview process, however when it came to the end of the interview, she came back to the subject. I couldn’t believe that this woman, who I had only been talking to for about 45 minutes, had a real belief that I could start my own business. She gave me all the details to contact the Prince’s Trust, and even told me about the Business Training that they offer.

When it comes to job seeking, and the Job Centre, you have to show that you have made some progress since your last meeting, so before my next meeting, this woman is expecting me to at least get in contact with the Prince’s Trust, just to see if it is the thing for me! I honestly don’t know what to think.

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I am flattered that this woman has so much belief in me; however am I the type of person that could set up their own business? I’m not too sure. I think I’ll have to do a lot of thinking about that before I pick up the phone and call the Prince’s Trust.

Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would say that I had an inspiring, and surprising time at the Job Centre. There genuinely are some wonderful people out there that see the good in people!

The First 5 Days

So it’s been about 5 days since I was told I no longer had a job. What has life been like these past 5 days? Well to be honest, it’s been a bit confusing.

I am one of these people that can hold their head up proudly, and say that I have never been fired from a job before. I’ve been unemployed yes, but mainly because an internship has come to an end or a temporary job has come to an end. When I first got the job that I am now no longer in, I was coming to the end of my CSI (Collection Skills Initiative Trainee) internship. I had been working with Uproar Comics on a project for my internship, and when my time in the Derry City Council Heritage and Museum Service came to an end, they offered me a job. Naturally I took it.

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Speaking at the Creative Centenaries: Digital Launch

It was a wonderful year with Uproar, and they taught me so many things, and one of the big highlights for me was getting to create my own history comics for the Tower Museum and the Creative Centenaries project. Unfortunately, my time with them has come to an end, but not in a way that I expected. I won’t go into the details of it.

So what has life been like for me since? As I said, the past 5 days have been a bit confusing. For the first 2 days, I honestly didn’t know myself. I was like a shadow of a person that I once knew. I just roamed around my house like a phantom, doing random chores and watching terrible daytime television. I couldn’t seem to shift from the weird mood that I had gotten myself into. I would think to myself, “Let’s play the Xbox,” an activity that usually cheers me up, but somewhere in the back of my mind, a little voice said “Nah…I couldn’t be bothered.” That little voice was quite loud for the first 2 days and I couldn’t do anything that I really enjoyed.

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When I woke up on the third day, I knew something was different. My phantom self was starting to recede. I could feel my normal self trying to claw its way back to the surface. My mood had improved somewhat, and I found the inner Museum Professional starting to re-emerge. It was like the wool had been pulled away from my eyes, and all of a sudden, I had the obsessive urge to clean. Sure I had been doing the odd chore here and there when I was in my phantom state, but now that my inner museum professional was coming to the surface, I felt the uncontrollable need to clean my house, from top to bottom. Rooms were thoroughly cleaned that didn’t even need to be thoroughly cleaned. At the end of the day my back ached, my shoulders were tight, and my hands were covered in a fine film of cleaning products, but I felt better. I felt like I had accomplished something.

It was on this day that I even started to contemplate new jobs. I will admit though, this thought completely scared me. I had a brief look online for jobs that I thought would suit me; however the process began to drag me back into that weird mood again, so I stopped.

It was on the fourth day that I decided to set up this blog, and I have to say, already it is helping me so much. This blog is a platform for me to express my thoughts and feelings. Sure the first couple of blogs may be a bit geeky in nature, but they were thoughts that I was having, and getting them out onto the blog helped to clear my head. Even writing this entry is clearing my mind and helping me to understand how I’m feeling about everything.

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Writing like this is a sure fire way of me getting back on track when it comes to my professional life, and even my personal life. I am hoping it will provide me with some structure during my days, weeks, months, but hopefully not years, of being unemployed.

I know not many people will read, or even see, my blog, but at least I know that it is out there. Who knows, by writing this, some museums professionals out there may see it and think, “Hmmmm this girl is pretty creative, I think I should hire her!” Alright I know that is wishful thinking, but at least I’m in the mood now for some wishful thinking!!

Welcome to BlogityHeth!

Welcome to BlogityHeth folks! My name is Heather, or Heth for short, and I have decided to create my own blog.

Recently I have found myself out of a job, so I thought to myself, “What can I do in my new found spare time, before I start the hunt for a job?”

The answer to my question was pretty obvious. I should start a blog.

BloggingIn my last job I blogged for a living. I was blogging for the company, and so I got into a habit of writing something every day. The things I used to write for the company were pretty geek orientated, and I think this is something I am going to continue with. There is nothing more fun than geeking out about the things you love. For this blog however, I think I may branch out a bit more. Sure I love everything geek, but I also love history, museums, heritage and culture. Geeking out about these things is also really fun, and also it will help in my hunt for a job.

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Being a Museum Professional at large is all good, but you need to keep your head in the game if you’re going to get anywhere. Expect bloggage about museums, education and how I plan to revolutionise the industry (well I plan to revolutionise the industry in my head!)

So the long and short of it is, I am writing my own blog now. As I blog, you’ll find out about the things I love, such as Superheroes, books, gaming, film and television. I will warn you now that I am a bit of a fangirl! Sometimes my excitement gets the better of me, but this is what a blog is for right? To express your excitement? That is what I intend to do! You’ll also get to read about my hunt for a new job in the museum sector, which hopefully won’t be boring and will throw up and number of surprises!

Cheerio for now!